Monthly Archives: March 2007

Too much

Lately things have been too much.

We’ve found out that too many people in our lives our sick. My brother-in-law has melanoma cancer so we are taking him to UofM hospital next Friday to get it cut out of his back. My great nephew is back at UofM hospital with heart problems, and was supposed to be released today but is backsliding. My mother-in-law needs a new hip, and to top it off someone very dear to me (who I promised I wouldn’t mention their name) has vascular disease, diabetes and other complications.

Too many people have already died in this un-winnable war, and there doesn’t seem to be a clear way to end it. It seems like we’ve lost our faith in our own government, perhaps for good reason.

It’s in times like this that I have to ask God if He’s forgotten us. I know that sounds heretical and all, but really, how much more? I know God loves everyone and all creation, I do. I also realize that He entrusts us to tend to all people and creation…but what about those in power who use their power to kill others? What about those who say that God has called them to kill Americans, for being American? It’s too much.

I know that change starts with effort from myself to change things. I understand it, but feel powerless in the face of all that needs changing. Our state government is tedering on the brink of a shut down because two parties can’t get along enough to approve the budget…which means that hundreds, thousands of people will be out of work, not getting pensions…and so on as of next Wed! That is too much.

Then, there’s still an illegal slave trade in the world. There’s a preventable AIDS crisis going on in the world. There are people in the world who don’t have food to eat. Kids dying of cureable disease. There’s so much consumption from the US that we are literally sucking poor countries ability to light their own homes, gas their cars, fuel their economy…and we don’t change. This is all way too much.

But I have to believe that this isn’t a surprise to God. I have to believe that this saddens the Creator and Sustainer of all things. I have to believe that God longs to intervene but can’t understand (yet) why He doesn’t. I choose to believe that the way of Jesus is a way to a better life for human kind…but I see Churches more interested in attendance and money than making positive change happen in the world around them. What good is it to fill a huge building with 10,000 people? What good does it do if all people see Church is a place of goods and 12 step programs to make them better rather than the arm of God for good in the world? If that’s all there is than I’m out. To be honest, I’ve been “out” for many years. While I’ve started creating new space for spirit living and belonging, it isn’t enough. There’s way too much, but I have to believe as the Bride of Jesus, we could all make the war end, feed the kids, heal the world, and bring about a radical change to our land, and the globe.

Like Jeff Daniel sings, “If you’re coming, Jesus…come on”


A Night With Jeff Daniels


One of my local hero’s is Jeff Daniels. Why? Because he loves Michigan. He was born, raised and continues to reside in Michigan. He owns and operates an amazing theater called “The Purple Rose.” My best friend Jim just bought me one of his CD’s (yes, he also writes and performs music). It is so great.

He talkes about the agony that is being a Detroit Tiger fan. Although, those blues were changed to joy this past season, thanks Pudge.

It’s such a fun, enjoyable cd. Please buy it, you’ll love it and get a glimspe of what it means to live and love Michigan.

Greenhouse of Michigan

I had a tremendous meeting with a group of new friends to talk about bringing Neil Cole to Michigan this year to launch a Greenhouse up here finally!

All in all, it was very encouraging. I know that many of us have been longing for this for a few years now. I can’t leak any details or anything but I am way too excited not to mention anything!



More about Neil Cole and CMA on their website.



Thy Mercy My God


Thy mercy my God is the theme of my song,
The joy of my heart, and the boast of my tongue.
Thy free grace alone, from the first to the last,
Hath won my affection and bound my soul fast.

Without Thy sweet mercy, I could not live here.
Sin would reduce me to utter despair,
But through Thy free goodness, my spirit’s revived
And He that first made me still keeps me alive.

Thy mercy is more than a match for my heart,
Which wonders to feel its own hardness depart.
Dissolved by Thy goodness, I fall to the ground
And weep for the praise of the mercy I’ve found.

(Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah)
(Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah)

Great Father of mercies, Thy goodness I own
In the covenant love of Thy crucified Son.
All praise to the Spirit, Whose whisper divine
Seals mercy and pardon and righteousness mine.
All praise to the Spirit, Whose whisper divine
Seals mercy and pardon and righteousness mine.

Well, Hallelujah
Hallelujah (Hallelujah)
Well, Hallelujah


I awoke this morning at 5am listening to this song. Today is tinged with sadness for me as tonight I am driving to my hometown to be with an old friend who just lost his mom to cancer. I am always at a loss for words in these moments. The loss of a parents leaves a person with a hole in their heart. What words could I ever say that could offer some type of salve to that kind of wound?

Nonetheless, we will make the journey and give the hugs. My heart breaks for my friend. I can’t (nor do I hope to) imagine the sudden loss of my mother to this crappy thing called cancer.

Molly just woke up and crawled in bed with us. I’m going to go tell her I love her now…

My new podcast

Hello, if you’d like to listen in on my life other than just reading about it, I’ve created a new podcast. You can check it out here.


Secret Video

shhh don’t tell anyone, but i put up a secret video of my buddy Paul Filan on my other blog!

A New Book

I’ve started writing a new book. I am soooo excited about it. It is tentatively called “Becoming Conversant With Evangelicals (or how to love the modern church).”

The first chapter I am wrapping up now is entitled “Post-modern, Emerging Church and other made up words.” In it, I talk about the nature of words and how meanings change over time and then I offer a quick primer of commonly used words used by Evangelicals and what they most-often mean when using them. Much of this is just plain funny, but my aim is to present a heart-felt path towards reconciliation and perhaps offer a peace branch for cooperation and love within the body of Christ.

I know that I’ve carried some baggage for a long time since leaving the modern church behind. It’s taken me a long time to move from bitterness to love.

I will most like post new ideas and chapters here. Right now, here are some of the chapters I’ve got down:

– How Rick Warren Caused the Apocalypse (or What Evangelicals Think About the “End Times”)

– The Truth Hurts

– God Still Shows Up to the Big Show

– Wesley, Finney and the Skinny Behind the History of Evangelicalism

– How Mega-Churches Blew It

– The Gospel According To Everyone Else

– Gays, Women and Other Taboo Topics

– Pat and the Christian Right (or how Politics have become co-opted)


SO, if you have any ideas for the book let me know. *For any current Evangelicals that may be reading (although I don’t know why you are) this, please know that I am not writing this to berate you. I am writing this with a hope for open communication and love…and I actually plan to interview some of you for this project. (unlike a similarly titled book w/ an opposing view)